Interpret:

Bright Eyes

Album:

Letting Off The Happiness

i had a brother once 
he drowned in a bathtub 
before he had ever learned 
how to talk 


and i don't know what his name was 
but my mother does 
i heard her say it once, 


padriac my prince 
i have all but died from the 
sheer weight of my shame. 
you cried but no one came 
and the water filled your  tiny lungs. 
appear, my dear, and cry for me. 
it was six years ago today that 
we laid you in your grave, 
your sweet young skin was shining then too. 


and so tonight to celebrate i will poison myself. 
another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom 
that is spinning. 
so i close the door 
and rest my head on the tile floor, 
sickness and sleep turning me cold. 


i am still not sure, 
is there some better place i could be heading towards? 
where the selfishly sick 
and self absorbed are welcome. 


i saw the future once. 
i was drunk in a phone booth. 
my eyes were wet and red 
but i could not tell what was said 
and through the screams of the traffic 
voices carried saying 
i am sorry 
on a day so gray its black inside 
watching churches on tv 
in a coma you don't dream 
you just hope that someone sits with you 
babies turn blue when they are ignored 
like the sky on summer days 
before you turn and walk away it has changed you 
so tonight to compensate i will poison myself 
another coughing, 
shaking fit in a bathroom that is spinning